it still doesn't sink in,
cause inside, i'm screaming i love you.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

 11:19 PM

and so hey you go thinking " things CANT get any worst", but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
It just did.

 1:06 AM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

i just died, of a heart attack.
okay, i'm seriously lamely playing.

my uncle just passed away,
and no, i'm not playing this time.


and somehow, i don't know how i'm suppose to feel, there's this heavy feeling thats undescribable and well, i guess my sister got me thinking about the "what ifs" , the " what nows" and whats going to happen to my aunt and cousin since he was the sole breadwinner.

i wasn't THAT close to him, but i always remembered him as someone really nice and all. Cheery and all. We were pretty close when i was young, and along the years we sorta just got busy with our own lives.

And now its just so very hard to picture him gone, its like i don't feel the huge pinch yet, its not that i don't feel anything, its just that i'm sure reality hasn't kicked into my brain yet and well, i'm prolly just avoiding that fact like how i always do. I avoid it and sink into denial till the very end. How very stupidly dumb, i know. But i'm even avoiding that fact, okay, i need serious help. No, I need sleep.

A lot of bad stuff being falling all at once and we all hate it how when bad things come all at once and never seem to end. It hard to absorb everything all at once and so i will just let my brain lag, as usual and take it all in slowly.

But there's one thing that i'm thankful and its that i found my wallet.
Yay?
Ya, okay, yay.


And here's to someone special thats going through a hard period in her life too:
Faith babe,
I'll be here for you always, i'm sorry i've not been there for you as much as i promised and i just hope you will be strong and i promise, i will visit you every moment i have, things will be alright. the Faith i know is strong, the Faith i know will stand strong when everything falls. love you babe. <333


oh and to add on to all this shit,
You're not here,
Your words are still ringing through my head,
You're gone,
And i'm going through withdrawal of You.

and thats what bugs me the most.

this is such a pathetically boring lame post.

whatever, oh how i hate this word.
but really, whatever,

today is just fucked up.

chiming in apogee,
the road signs reading bitter end

 8:16 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

don't say a word,
i'm falling.

 12:31 PM

Monday, October 23, 2006

EILEEN IS THE POWER OF THE POWER MAN. xD

Faith: I can't believe you play the piano (Looks at me.)
Me: Ha, i bet you can't believe i even play the guitar.
Faith: (pauses) Can lahhhhhhh, But piano?!..
Vick: Do you believe i play piano?
Faith: Can what.
Eileen: YOU BELIEVE ME IF I SAY I PLAY WITH BOYS?

She sent F, V and me slamming tables and laughing super hard. I mean, SUPER OUTTA POINT AND RIDICULOUS CAN! But power man! xDD!! Taidiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii all day longgggggggg. We played till my eyes kept seeing the diamonds, spades etc after we stop playing.

Netball. Seniors came back.
Sup is funny, As usual.

Clique outing tmrw. (:
Its been so very long since the last time.

Oh shiattttttttt! ANTM!
Noche! (:

 10:10 PM

Tie my hands back,
Put this rope to my neck,
And kick the chair away from under my legs



Cause my bloody valentine,
its hurts too much that,
I lost Your heart somewhere along the depths of sea.

 12:11 AM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

You're gone.


I can hear ticking clocks,
Running rampant in me.

taking steps back through the words i should've said to you
they all got lost
you went away well
i feel sick and you just don't care anymore
anymore
hours to be with you
minutes of me in you
and i can't feel this happening so tie my hands back
and make me feel you coming down
coming down...

and you don't care your face is on a billboard
and you're everywhere
you don't care much for interviews
you're gone you're gone you're gone you're gone
you're gone you're gone you're gone you're gone away
if you don't like being hurt then please don't stay

it's hard to wave goodbye from aeroplanes
when i just don't think that you can see i taper off
and say its never worth the pain but sometimes it is.

-
i kiss your neck
i feel you breathing on my shoulder s
till i'm perfect
it must be you cause now it's over
i was so close
that was the most that i have ever been through
now old cassettes and cigarettes
will be the ones to save you
how can you ask for me to stay when all you ever do is go?
just go.

It must exhausting to lose your own game,
But you wouldn't call me when you're sober.

 12:12 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Wake up.
Volleyball today, it was fun lah. I got hit straight on the head and arse by the stupid Volleyball. And its always that same spot, I swear i'm getting dumber.

Lunch with Chong today, here we go again, she REALLY MAKES ME WANNA SMACK HER ON THE FACE. And she's damn retarded. She loves making confessions to me, assuming i'm her priest in the box. She needs a priest and box asap, and SERIOUS help. ;) ( Will someone get the hint OREADY and help that miserable little girl priest wannabe? xD)

Just got back from Theresa's party. It was okay, more like gathering for B,V, M and me. We were spas-ing so much i think i almost died laughing. MOOOOOOOOOOO-reese needs to worry when she get senile when she's older. Okay, No, WE have to worry. xD

Ah, forget it, i'm lazy to continue. I already feel oozy and oozy. My eyes are super redddddddddd. (SHARINGAN! :D)


bye.

Stay, up.
Cause i'm no dick.

 12:35 AM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Karma.
I won't touch on what happen today cause its some sensitive issue, seems like a hidden bomb ready to explode anytime and well, i'm just not ready or rather, whatever for. Make it explode and then the matter comes complicated.

But,
I agree with them,
And we still take the same stand.

Enough.
Goodbye CV.

Soooo,
Faith wants me to blog about Her. Okay, lets see, she named my two bruises, DRAKE AND JOSH. Someone agree with me she's strange. ;) And oh oh oh! She named her scab, JON LEONG. -_________- Yes, she's retarded. But well, it was nice catching up with You today lah babe. :)
RMB TO BRING GAMEBOY OKAY! xDDD

Oh, and cheer up lah , You boronic zoronic schizo . :)


fall.

 7:36 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

EVERY HE-SAID-SHE-SAID FIGHT.
I think, NO, scratch that,
I KNOW my mother seeks joy in just nagging, even if she knows im not listening to her.

Ro-b-hood today. I wanna marry the baby, Okay, now i know why MJ is a padoephile. Ha, Louis Khoo very hot too lah. Shit, I sound so gay but who cares. D should stop drooling when she watches Louis Khoo. xD

I wanna watch death note.

I think forever is a stupid word and it should be scratch off from the dictionary cause it doesn't exist in this world at least. So fuck forever and say hello to never.

Yes, I'm random.
-
You guys should REALLY know when to draw the line, Sorry kiddos, I'm not on your sides anymore.
-

SCHOOL IS GETTING BORING.
I NEED TO FIND MY LONG LOST GAMEBOY REALLY SOON.
YES, LAUGH.
I WAS PLAYING WITH DEMELZA ANG LITING'S ONE TODAY. ( She's gonna kill me when she reads this but HAHAHAHA. SHE OWES ONE AND WAS PLAYING TOO. ) SHE DIDN'T WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE HER GAMEBOY IN PS TODAY SO I HAD TO PRETEND IT WAS MINE.
What a retard right! xD

Natasha says i'm emo when she's more emo. And she's being really nice today, she must have borrowed a heart today. xD

JYue is SINGINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG AND NOW SCREAMING. OUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. She just announced she's damn pissd. OKAY LOR! xD

I've come to a final conclusion that i'm superrrrrrrrrrrrr random. :)

I'm feeling damn bitterly fucked up now,

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,

YOUUUUUUUUU.
GGGGGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AWAYYYYYYYY LAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.


cut the damn cord.

 10:22 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

And when you start to comtemplate the possibility.




JY! Lets go guns scouting! xD I want the best, and you can have the rest! xDD

And NUT-ZOO, PLEASE STOP HAVE SPLIT PERSONALITY YOU WEIRDO. XD AND PLEASE DIE SOON, BUT FIRST, WILL ALL YOUR MONEY TO ME! :DDD I will be the FIRST to cry when You die lahhhh, CRY WITH JOY! xDDDDDDDDDD




Ehhhhhhhhhhhh,
What can i say?
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,
Fuck?

Ha ha ha.
Wait, i just realise i can't even be bothered to.


So deal with it.

 11:26 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

but when the last petal drops,







I will throw my heart into the deepest sea,
so You wouldn't see it still beating for You.

just another 90,000 days more.
I will meet You somewhere no one can retrace.

 7:22 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Candice's songs make me emo, that shit head who loves poking ppl in their arses.

Again.
I told myself
I won't miss You
But I remembered
What it feels like beside You
I really miss Your hair in my face
And the way Your innocence tastes
And I think You should know this
You deserve much better than me

 3:13 PM

you know, lazy?

- Its Friday the 13th.
- Founder's day celebration. BORING with the big B.
- Only Supranee's speech rocked.
- Lunched at Hougang w D.
- Bumped into J, A, C and a whole load of pple.
- I do NOT follow ppl ard -________- You stupid airhead.
- Basketball with A and her friends.
- Friday nights are always fucked up.
- Bingo, I'm done.

You deserve much better than me.

 1:49 AM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

One year,
Just like that.

Painted archives.

 11:15 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

WE'RE NOT MEANT TO BEEEEEEEEEEE- SINGS.

Hahaha. xD

Got back English and Chinese today, the marks were about the same so i guess they were okay. :) And well, i'm quite happy with my english already as i rushed through the compo with only a minute left and half way through the story i just ended with a " David had lost." And i still passed. And my heart stopped for two seconds when i received my paper. But well, i'm contented. :)

BUT, tmrw's when the BOMB drops, when hell breaks looseeeeeeeeeee. My sciences are gonna be atrocious and somehow, i don't feel like going to school cause i have to face it. Ha, i can hear myself in my head going,
" TAKE IT LIKE A MAN LAH. " But horrrrrrr, i don't want leh. OKAY, fine, IM SO RANDOM. (FAITH ALERT)

Out with U6 and well, it was fun cause i've not gone out with them in YEARS. Okay, MONTHS. And well, it felt good to be around them again and well you should always play the number game with Qy. She always get the number ON THE FIRST TRY. she owes us like TEN THOUSAND forfeits already. Suggestions, anyone? :)


With the lips of an angel,
She makes it so hard to say goodbye.

 11:05 PM

One stab too many.
Where do i find the strength?
The strength to let You go.

the gun with a pulled trigger.

 12:20 AM

Monday, October 09, 2006

Close your eyes, i'll be gone tmrw.

i hate it how You always make me feel
i'm better off dead than to deal with it.

 11:27 PM

When curiousityjealousy killed the cat.

Went out with Chong. That girl is SERIOUSLY MAD. She needs SERIOUS help (: Ha, Watched World Trade Centre. It's damn sad, And its like when you think " things can't get any worst" Wah, Something would happen and make it all worst. And Chong was being an irritant during the show, She bended my straw and hid it so that i can't find it. -_- Tell me, what am i doing with someone this childish. (; But well, she makes me laugh myself silly, so she's forgiven. xD

-
"Cause you're a girl"
So, the fault ultimately layed on my gender.

And thats when "i love you"s
becomes just a feeble line.

Cause i finally realised, You were never meant for me.

 10:30 PM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Its been long nights and draggy days.

Cept for yesterday,
Went out with Anna, Bird, Candice and Faith. So if you realise, how names are ABCDF. So we put Bird as both and we got ABCDEF! :D Hahaha, They make my day fullstop. :) John Tucker must die is damn funny, Candice got freaked out by me and Faith wanted to whack me damn hard. Ha, but days are so fun with them.

Trngs are about to start again, I haven't ran in 234567890087321 years. Good luck too me. And the stupid haze is irritating me.

Let me be the one to hold You tight.

No, scratch that.

The end.

 4:08 PM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

There go the street lights - the night's officially on,
I got the green light - to do what ever i want,
I'm Gonna stand - outside - the box - and put the rules on hold,

Tonight Carte blanche first class for the evening

Ready Set Go
All the girls steppin out for a public affair
(All night,Lets rock cause the party dont stop)
All the cameras come out for a public affair
(Who cares, lets rock, cause the party don't stop)

-
Whoooooooooooo! This song makes me happy, Somehow. xD
But well, i only liked it after Nurul sang it,
And did i mention Nurul reminds me of a teacher that makes me lose my train of thoughts. Hahahaha. Oh well. xD RANDOM. (Yes, Faith, Your forte)

No sch for today and just ONE more paper.
ONE, ONE, ONE.
No, Doralynn ain't losing it like Faith does.
Its just that i'm happy that there's just
ONE,
ONE,
ONE,
ONE,
ONE more freaking paper left!

"But thats when, the results comes out and thats when you know if you retain or not. Or if you can even make it."
Oh shut up you ultimate optimist. ;)
(Yes Faith, stop being a stupid pessimist, You're getting in my head so much i wanna whack your face if you mention the word "Retain" One more time. HEY, ONE! XD )

Chong, Nat and Me are going to sing public affair when we go clubbing at night in Brazil. We should hire a limo!

Ole' Public affair. :)

 2:08 PM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

I was suppose to write a story of the four goons i hang out in school most of the time. xD Well here it goes.

Once upon a time, there were 4 ahhhh-nnoying people in the world.
They were called Veeekoooo, ChaRoo , Birdooo and AnnNoooooooooooo(Ann-Nu).

Veekoo's lovable but loves to gives ogre faces,

ChaRoo's sweet but loves to whine like crazy. Her favourite phrase is "BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY, THEY ARE SO ANNNNNNNNNNNNOYINGGGGGGGGG."

Birdoooo's coooool(or thats what she thinks lah. ) but she loves to drooool. (Hey, i think that sorta rhymes)

AnnNoooooooo's cute but she loves to punch pillars to alert pple about lunch.

We spend time walking past the parade square and playing shoe-ball with AnnNooooo shoes. We scream and talk really loudly and bother pple like crazy. We laugh so hard when we see the ultimate run of the CENTURY. Ann Nooo's Run. :)

VeeekOOOO spends her life screeching,
ChaROO spends her life singing,
BirdOOOO spends her life drooling,
and Ann NOOOO spends her life punching.

:)

They make my day. Okay, somedays lah. Keyword : Somedays. xD

Well, here comes the beautiful ending.
They love me BELLY much so they lived happily ever after. :)

Thank God i have no school tmrw. xD

Wait, all good stories don't come to an end. So VEEKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, Its your turn! :D
-
Today sucks cause i realised i've gained back whatever i lost. :( Its suppose to be good but well, its weight you're talking about so no good. Ha, so random, I'm getting really random and all, i think, no wait, I KNOW, it has got to be something to do with hanging ard Faith the RANDOM all the time. xD

I screwed Poa and i've yet to panick. Maybe i will when at the point when i'm gonna get back the paper. Shiattttttttttttttttt, So dead.

And to be abit more randommmmmm, I absolutely love to annoy Annabella. :) Wait, did i mention LOVE to annoy? Okay, I LOVE to annoy Annabella cause she loves to look at midairrrrrrrrrrr. HELLO JIEJIE :D
-



Maybe this broken heart is too weak to hold your weight. Or maybe, You're too weak to hold onto the weight of forever.
Nothing lasts forever anyway, Who was i kidding.
Ha, now now, isn't that easy.
Me.

I've missed You,
Miss me when im gone,
Cause poster girl,
I'm going down in flames as you finally break it to me.
She said "What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?"
but you make me wanna believe.

Now now, No more buts.

I'm choking,
These words are stumbling as they come.
Now wouldn't the biggest question of the century be,
Why. Ha.

Its okay,
the tears are just a coincidence.

 6:02 PM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Sometimes you hold so tight, it slips right through your fingers.



She said, "What good is tomorrow without a guarantee?"

But i'm still falling in love with the right now poster girl.



And when even the longest bus rides ends, i still can't seem to find the way out. 





-
Darn, I can't study.
DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs.

 6:07 PM

Thanks D.
Anws, was bored so i ripped this from D's blog.

WHAT DO YOU RESPOND WHEN PEOPLE TELL/ASK YOU ...WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?- Cannot arh, wanna fight ah!

I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU-Did You do your reflections today? You're finally out of Your denial. ;)

LEAVE HIM//HER ALREADY. YOU'LL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME- Huh, Really arh, But i'm sure i'm not in denial :)

COME ON. SMILE. YOURE CUTE WHEN YOU DO THAT- Haha, I know. xD

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO- Ha, You sure?

WHO DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON? ME,RIGHT?- You need help, Serious help. Your denial illness is back.

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU- Hahaha, I know that too. xD

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?- Eh, maybe, just maybe cause God made it that way? xD

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?- I'll think abt it! xD

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?- God bless You, You've done your reflections again. (: And Yes, i knew that long ago. xD

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU- Don't scrape Your knee while You're at it. xD

CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU- Well, okay then, sing the You're my sunshine song to me. :)

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST ARENT HIM//HER- I'm not? Thank God. xD

NOTHING SAYS : WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?- Uhhhh, lets seeee, I can't rmb, I will tell You when i do! xD

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE- Huhhhhhhhhh, You sure not, Your toes might have major stampede on it lehhhhhhh. xD

MAY I COURT YOU- -.- Which court? xD

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM//HER TILL NOW- Yes, no, maybe so, could you repeat the question?

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING I WANTED- Aiyooo, You always want what you can't have. xD Well, keep it that way. ;)

WHEN WILL I GET YOUR SWEET YES- When you don't get a bitter no! xD

-
Biology here i come.

I'll pick myself up again,
cause i really don't mind spilling my heart for You.

I swear I'd rip my heart out if You said You'd be impressed.

 1:27 PM

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